Upon Waking

And the sun shines in my curtains and fills the room
and I look into it, and I am happy
and completely alone

But yesterdays troubles ease their way into play, and the feelings overwhelm me

I close my curtains and hide away from the day and pray to God that the bone crushing sadness will go away

But he doesn't listen

So instead, so instead I look forward to the brief bits of happiness and try to run away from the moment my eyes focus and the sadness creeps back up.

So slowly and surely
And swallows me whole.